[She's been here before and she doesn't want to do it again. Death is something she knows. It's ingrained in her, it's a part of her, but it still terrifies her. The aftermath of death terrifies her. The breaking, the falling, the emptiness. Death is final, but there is so much after death for everyone else. Sophia hates death.
She's felt death, she's been face to face with it, but this is different. This she doesn't have to touch. She doesn't have to see. She can run away from it if she wants. Only...she'll feel it. And it might just hurt more than any death has since her mother died. No, it will. Because this is Abby, and she needs Abby, and she wants to be able to take care of Abby the way Abby's always taken care of her. She wants to make this entire thing go away.
Abby is better. Abby is lovely and better, and Sophia wants to trade. She wants to go and let Abby stay, because that's what Abby deserves. That's what Gabe deserves.
No, there will be too much pain here. Too much falling. And she doesn't want it.
She's standing in the corner of Abby's room, her arms hugging herself tight, and she's not sure what to do. She's scared. Scared of feeling, scared of getting too close and breaking Abby; breaking herself. She wants to curl up in Abby and hold her down to this life forever.
This day has always been coming, but Sophia still can't take it. She can't take a world that will take away the most lovely people in her life.
So she stands pressed to the corner, unable to move and unable to look away.]
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Date: 2012-03-06 04:59 am (UTC)She's felt death, she's been face to face with it, but this is different. This she doesn't have to touch. She doesn't have to see. She can run away from it if she wants. Only...she'll feel it. And it might just hurt more than any death has since her mother died. No, it will. Because this is Abby, and she needs Abby, and she wants to be able to take care of Abby the way Abby's always taken care of her. She wants to make this entire thing go away.
Abby is better. Abby is lovely and better, and Sophia wants to trade. She wants to go and let Abby stay, because that's what Abby deserves. That's what Gabe deserves.
No, there will be too much pain here. Too much falling. And she doesn't want it.
She's standing in the corner of Abby's room, her arms hugging herself tight, and she's not sure what to do. She's scared. Scared of feeling, scared of getting too close and breaking Abby; breaking herself. She wants to curl up in Abby and hold her down to this life forever.
This day has always been coming, but Sophia still can't take it. She can't take a world that will take away the most lovely people in her life.
So she stands pressed to the corner, unable to move and unable to look away.]